on track

can't believe I worried so much and so long over something so easily sorted. Those tablets the doc gave me did the trick straight away and I no longer need them. Everything working as it should.

simple as that.

I'm doing better with the training now. I did do quite badly whilst I was seeing someone. I just didn't have time for anything, training eating right or anything so it was all going quite badly down hill. he probably did me a favour dumping me. Doesn't feel like it but I'm now training hard (I can feel my muscles again :-) ) and am eating properly good home cooked food with only good ingrediants. No rubbish.

I really need to concentrate on that now. Only four months to the marathon. I need to lose the rest of the weight now and get running!

Plus I've just been invited to a wedding in Devon in July. I'm quite excited about it and want to wear something nice and look good. Plus I might book a few days off and stay there a bit longer. Make it a bit of a holiday.

worrying

I shouldn't have gone to RPM. I felt dreadful, it was horrible. I wanted to throw up. Really really thirsty too. First time I have run out of water during RPM and the bottle was full at the beinning. I have a salty taste in my mouth today.

That wasn't the worst thing though. Yes it was tough, I felt ill and really struggled but the thing is during RPM my mind tends to wonder even though it is such hard work. Up until then I had managed to not really think about what it means. I was just thinking about the fact that I felt crap.

I've started taking the tablets the doctor gave me.

Medical Problems

Phoned for test results on Friday and they had come back normal so now I'm waiting for my scan appointment but today after a 5week long period then a week off it has started again. And this time with really bad period pains. Worse than I've had in quite a while.

reason not to worry

Just thought I'd say because it sort of relates to what me and Michelle have been talking about in the comments, another reason I'm being a bit more chilled about my slow weight loss is that at the moment I don't know what is going on with my body.

There is deffinitely something wrong. The symptoms are tangable and not within my control so there is no doubt there is something and it is being investigated but as yet we don't know what it is. It might turn out to be, hopefully, something really trivial but the point is it is silly stressing about anything my body is doing including the weight loss well we have no idea what is wrong with me and wether or not it is affecting my weight.

I have a good doctor though who is covering all the bases and checking everything out to find out what is going on. I have to phone today for the results from some tests and I'm waiting for an appointment to come through to go to the hospital for a scan.

The end

i couldn't get weighed on the usual scales. Matt said they are away being fixed but to be honest I don't believe him. It's not unusual for him to be ecconomical with the truth and I think he just didn't want to weigh me in case I hadn't lost weight again. I suggested he weigh me on the ones with the slidy scale in the gym and he agreed but didn't seem happy about it, I don't really know how you use them Matt told me I'm 15st 11lb. Wether that's true or accurate I don't know.

Crap way to end the 6 weeks. anyway if it is right that means I have lost 1st 5lb in total. I'm having a couple of days off and have eaten loads of junk but will be getting back to healthy eating and exercising daily soon. I will be going to RPM tomorrow anyway.

Photos - Here are the photos of me at the start, 3 weeks and at 6 weeks. If you can see any difference you are doing better than me. i really thought I could see a difference in myself in the mirror but looking at these photos I think I was just fooling myself.

Doctors again

that was horrible but at least it is over with. Examination done, everything looks fine. Swabs taken, results on Friday. Referal for scan sent to hospital, should get appointment in a few weeks.

speak like a pirate day

Ahoy me mateys! it be speak like a pirate day so it is.

If those dastardly scales don't say I've lost weight on Tuesday I be keelhauling that scurvy dog of a trainer.

Shiver me timbers!!