Well this afternoons session wasn't as expected. I thought it was going to be really hard with my muscles already aching but I set the weights to what I usually do and it seemed easier than usual.
by the time I'd done I didn't really feel like I'd done anything and was a bit bored actually. I'm now feeling like I've not done enough today even though I still have swimming to do.
Wednesday, 2 September 2009
My favourite biggest loser clip
I laugh until I cry every time I watch this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hf8ZleWCck
LET GO OF THE TREE!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hf8ZleWCck
LET GO OF THE TREE!!
weights
on my exercise plan it says Heavy weights this morning and light weights this afternoon. Matt said the heavy weights need to be a lot heavier than I normaly do and it should really be a struggle so that's what I did.
On each machine I set it a lot higher than I usually do, to a point I could only just lift it. I usually do 3 sets of 15 on each but there was absolutely no way I could do that. I still did 3 sets on each but they were only of 5 and each time I didn't think I was going to be able to complete it. I certainly didn't go easy on myself. Matt said struggle and struggle I did.
The only one that was different was the shoulder press. I always struggle to do that at all but I did set it at a higher weight than usual but I only managed one set. Well actually rather than one set of 5 it was more like 5 sets of one as I had to stop between each one.
It hurts already. I can feel the muscles aching and I still have to go back and do the light weights and my second swimming session of the day.
On each machine I set it a lot higher than I usually do, to a point I could only just lift it. I usually do 3 sets of 15 on each but there was absolutely no way I could do that. I still did 3 sets on each but they were only of 5 and each time I didn't think I was going to be able to complete it. I certainly didn't go easy on myself. Matt said struggle and struggle I did.
The only one that was different was the shoulder press. I always struggle to do that at all but I did set it at a higher weight than usual but I only managed one set. Well actually rather than one set of 5 it was more like 5 sets of one as I had to stop between each one.
It hurts already. I can feel the muscles aching and I still have to go back and do the light weights and my second swimming session of the day.
Tuesday, 1 September 2009
who's reading
I suspect Stephen could be reading my blog. I'm judging this on the number of times he has asked my how my back is and how the bruises are ever since my 'comfort eating' post yesterday.
I'm not complaining, it's nice that he cares. I'll have to watch what I say though.
I'm not complaining, it's nice that he cares. I'll have to watch what I say though.
why am I bothering.
Just been talking to my mum on the phone. She told me how she has lost 4lb in the last 2 weeks. I asked how she's done that and she said she's been trying not to each much of the bad stuff. I asked if she has done any exercise and she said no. well I knew that and she really means no exercise she can hardly walk due to arthritis.
Exactly the same as the amount I've lost by half killing myself every day and eating around 1200 cal. All homemade, fresh food, no processed or ready made stuff, no fat, sugar, salt (or taste)
Why on earth am I still doing it.
Exactly the same as the amount I've lost by half killing myself every day and eating around 1200 cal. All homemade, fresh food, no processed or ready made stuff, no fat, sugar, salt (or taste)
Why on earth am I still doing it.
falling on the stairs
Rather than reply to Michelle's comment I decided to put what happened in a new post.
Yesterday I was walking down the stairs squirting fabreeze on the carpet ahead of me. At the bottom of the stairs the hallways is tiled and I got the tiles wet with the fabreeze and I was in bare feet (as always). As I stepped onto the tiles my foot just shot out from under me. My toes smashed into the wall in front of me. I pulled the muscle in my calf. I fell backwards onto the steps withthe bottom of my back and both my forarms hitting the edge of steps.
At first I did think I had properly injured myself, I was just in so much pain in so many places I couldn't focus on any one thing or what was actually wrong. I was just sat there waiting for the pain to start to die down and it actually made me cry. I know I'm always saying things make me cry but that's emotional stuff. Physical pain doesn't usually make me cry but I was on my own and hurting so much and it didn't seem to be dieing down and I didn't know how badly I was injured.
Obviously the pain did eventually die down though and it probably didn't take as long as it seemed. It soon became obvious most of the painful bits were just bruised. I was then only worried about my toes which I did wonder if I had broken one or more and my calf as I know once the muscle has gone once it can keep happening so I was worried about it effecting training.
It hasn't been a problem though as time passed it became obvious my toes are ok and there has been no reoccurence of pulling the muscle in my calf.
The bruises are sore but they are just bruises. They kept me awake because I move around a lot in bed and the worst bruise is at the bottom of my back/top of my bum on the left hand side. It is all worse on the left as that was the foot that went out from under me so everything on my left hit first. So last night every time I rolled over to the left it hurt so i was trying not to and that was making it difficult to sleep.
Yesterday I was walking down the stairs squirting fabreeze on the carpet ahead of me. At the bottom of the stairs the hallways is tiled and I got the tiles wet with the fabreeze and I was in bare feet (as always). As I stepped onto the tiles my foot just shot out from under me. My toes smashed into the wall in front of me. I pulled the muscle in my calf. I fell backwards onto the steps withthe bottom of my back and both my forarms hitting the edge of steps.
At first I did think I had properly injured myself, I was just in so much pain in so many places I couldn't focus on any one thing or what was actually wrong. I was just sat there waiting for the pain to start to die down and it actually made me cry. I know I'm always saying things make me cry but that's emotional stuff. Physical pain doesn't usually make me cry but I was on my own and hurting so much and it didn't seem to be dieing down and I didn't know how badly I was injured.
Obviously the pain did eventually die down though and it probably didn't take as long as it seemed. It soon became obvious most of the painful bits were just bruised. I was then only worried about my toes which I did wonder if I had broken one or more and my calf as I know once the muscle has gone once it can keep happening so I was worried about it effecting training.
It hasn't been a problem though as time passed it became obvious my toes are ok and there has been no reoccurence of pulling the muscle in my calf.
The bruises are sore but they are just bruises. They kept me awake because I move around a lot in bed and the worst bruise is at the bottom of my back/top of my bum on the left hand side. It is all worse on the left as that was the foot that went out from under me so everything on my left hit first. So last night every time I rolled over to the left it hurt so i was trying not to and that was making it difficult to sleep.
Another 2lb
Got wighed this morning and am 102.7kg 16st 3lb so I've lost another 2lb this week.
I'm trying to think well it's weight lost, I'm less this week than last week but to be honest that isn't what I'm thinking.
What I'm thinking is IT'S NOT FAIR! and I want to cry. I'm using all my anual leave for this and working out for hours a day and averaging 1200 calories a day. most day's I'm absolutely exhaused. I didn't update my blog properly over the weekend because I was simply too tired to even do that.
That is not sustainable eventually I have to go back to work and my normal life and then what? If this is what it takes for me to lose 2lb a week.
I'm seriously close to giving up, totally and just accepting that I am an obese person, it's just how I'm ment to be. I can't live the rest of my life like this. I can't live the rest of my life battling to not be obese every single minute never doing or thinking about anything else. What sort of life is that? and I'd have to win the lottery to enable it to be the only thing I ever do.
Other people aren't like this, why am I. I really do work hard. I really am trying.
I hardly slept last night thanks to the bruises from falling on the stairs yesterday but I still got up at 6am so I could get to the pool and do my early morning swimming as per schedual before taking my dad to his group and then to the gym.
I can't do anymore than I'm doing.
I'm trying to think well it's weight lost, I'm less this week than last week but to be honest that isn't what I'm thinking.
What I'm thinking is IT'S NOT FAIR! and I want to cry. I'm using all my anual leave for this and working out for hours a day and averaging 1200 calories a day. most day's I'm absolutely exhaused. I didn't update my blog properly over the weekend because I was simply too tired to even do that.
That is not sustainable eventually I have to go back to work and my normal life and then what? If this is what it takes for me to lose 2lb a week.
I'm seriously close to giving up, totally and just accepting that I am an obese person, it's just how I'm ment to be. I can't live the rest of my life like this. I can't live the rest of my life battling to not be obese every single minute never doing or thinking about anything else. What sort of life is that? and I'd have to win the lottery to enable it to be the only thing I ever do.
Other people aren't like this, why am I. I really do work hard. I really am trying.
I hardly slept last night thanks to the bruises from falling on the stairs yesterday but I still got up at 6am so I could get to the pool and do my early morning swimming as per schedual before taking my dad to his group and then to the gym.
I can't do anymore than I'm doing.
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