Almost at the end.

Thought I had better say that I'm not still in a strop. I haven't posted since because, well frankly I couldn't be bothered. :-)

After my last post a friend send me a lovely message that calmed me down somewhat but also started me thinking about my blog and my weightloss and why I'm doing all this.

I went back and read my very first post which I haven't read or thought about in such a long time. I got very emotional reading it. Remembering everything, what life was like before, what it was like thinking I was going to die and I cried buckets reading the bit about the race for life, remembering just how big a deal that was for me. Really was one of the most major mile stones in my life. What it felt like to achieve that.

By the time I finished reading I had realised that I can't stop, I can't give in and go back to how I was, even if I continue to do terribly I have to carry on for all the same reasons I decided to do it in the first place.

If you've never read that first post here's the link http://yorkshirepud-runfatgirlrun.blogspot.com/2008/07/story-so-far.html

I really can't carry on like I have been doing though. That is no way to live life. I am going to continue to exercise when this is over though not to the same extent. Maybe an hour a day or something. i am going to continue to have a healthy diet and as long as I'm doing that and know I'm living a healthy lifestyle then I'm not going to stress about it.

If I live like that and never lose another pound well then I never lose another pound. I am what I am and wasting my life getting upset and stressing about it won't help.