The main reason I started this blog was to help me continue with what I'm trying to do. I'm really stuggling. The lowest weight I have got to is 14 7 and that was last september. since then I have gradually put weight back on and I am now 15 stone 4pounds. I have kept losing some and putting it back on again.
I know that I really need to get this sorted now. I did the race for life this size no problem. I know i can do the great north run while I am this size because I always said I wasn't bothered if I walked or ran it and I know I can walk it as I walked 13 miles on Monday.
But the London marathon in 2010, that's a different matter. I have set myself a target of running the whole thing. I can not do that at the size I am now and it isn't just a case of losing the weight before the marathon as I need to train. If I am going to train properly and in time to be able to achieve this I need to lose the weight now.
Yesterday I thought typing that first post on my blog was good incentive, remembering where it all started and my reasons for doing it but then today I've done it again. i was fine up until I started making tea. I'm making a lasagne and I was day dreaming as i was grating the cheese. I suddenly realised I had grated too much so what do I do? I butter a slice of bread and make a cheese sandwich and eat it. and then it is like oh well I've messed up now what difference is a ryevita covered in inch thick butter going to make?
I'm a bleeding idiot!
I'm sure the food talks to me and goads me into eating it - it's evil.
Anyway I really need to stop making excuses, I've done it before, I lost 7 stone. I know how hard it is but I can do it and I need to do it again now!
1 comment:
Grrr.
You know why I'm angry.
No excuses now H, we doing London in 2010? Running all the way?
You know you can do it but you've got to be determined and be good!
No excuses!!
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