Got to try harder

Things haven't exactly gone according to plan since my last post. I went on holiday to Butlins. I had good intentions as I didn't see it as me being on holiday. I was going for Cody, it was Codys holiday so I took my gym stuff and intended to run or go to the gym every day and because it was half board and I didn't have to cook I could choose healthy things to eat.

I started off well but each day was worse than the one before and I only went running once and didn't go to the gym at all. We're talking burger king, all you can eat pizza buffet, bacon butties, toast and jam, and lots of junk, chocolate, crisp sandwiches etc on an evening.

I got home on friday and went straight to the gym where Matt weighed me. I knew it was bad when he said he wasn't going to tell me. Then I could see he was debating wether to tell me the truth or not but I pointed out that I hate him lying to me even in a good cause because it means I never know whether to believe him and don't trust him. So he told me - 99.something kg 15st 8lb! I have put on half a stone in a week!

I was really quite upset about that. I really didn't think it would be that bad, despite all the food, I did go running one night and I was on the go constantly with Cody. I left my heart rate monitor on for 24 hours to see how much I was doing. I worked off 3500 cal in one day and that wasn't when I went running.

I wish I didn't put weight on so easily.

I came home and well and truly made the most of the last day before going back on the diet. If matt reads this he isn't going to be happy, I didn't tell him that. I had chicken wings, potato wedges and pizza from pizza hut, I also had biscuits toast and crisp sandwiches.

I was upset and when I'm upset I eat and was thinking is there any point maybe I'll give up it's too hard (my usual reaction to putting weight on)

But I started the next day with determination. I decided I'm not going to do what I've done in the past and I'm not going to go back to how I was. I decided I will go all out to lose at least the half stone I've put on before next week.

I have cut down the number of calories I'm having to around 1000 a day and am working out wherever possible. I went to the gym last night and worked really hard and worked off 569 cal if I remember rightly. This morning I have already done an exercise video and worked off just under 400 cal and will go to the gym once Cody is in bed.

The down side to that is I'll miss Gladiators, why can't it be on an hour earlier or the gym open an hour later?

Almost lunch time, poached egg on toast. yum yum