Day 13

Another RPM class this morning and I managed better today.

I turned up at the gym at 7.30am to make sure I reserved a bike by the door and found the gym was shut. It doesn't open until 8 haha how keen am I?

I got the bike closest to the door that wasn't the one with the rubber bit missing and no one sat in front of me - Bonus! Everyone else is way better than me but I managed.

I felt ok (emotionally) until talk started of - is anyone leaving - when we were part way through and I couldn't help wondering if they were laughing at me. Then I did want to leave, but I didn't, I stayed and finished it.

It seems a bit strange that all I have to do today is the RPM class and a gym circuit. I might have gone out and ran even though Matt said not to but I have period pains again so I'll do as I'm told.

I don't feel ill like yesterday but have pains in my back. I'm getting really fed up of this. It's rediculous. I long for the days when it would start, be about 4 or 5 days and then stop and I could forget about it for a month. I can't believe I used to complain. I really should go back to the doctor though to be honest I'm scared it'll end in either hysterectomy or being told it's the menopaus and that's the end of the last gimmer of hope of having a baby.